April 12, 2015
The day my little girl was born was honestly the best day of my life. I had been in labor for three days… (longest three days of my life) I had to be induced so my body wasn’t really ready for labor, but they made it happen.. after three different types of drugs to speed up dilating. I had only planned on going in for one of my regular checkups at the hospital and they informed me I would be staying to deliver. I knew she wasn’t going to come that night but I also didn’t know I would have to wait what seemed like forever to finally meet her. I wasn’t filled in on the instructions, routine or pains of giving birth because my classes were the day after I had been admitted.. I was going in blind folded basically. You see it in movies or hear mothers stories but your just like “oh that was easy, they made it look like a breeze“. Boy were they lying. It was the hardest, most rewarding thing I have ever accomplished. Even to this day, I’m still in shock my body could do something so amazing!
Anyway, Im getting off topic… point is I was in labor for three days. Meeting a new nurse every couple hours: whose names and faces I forgot in minutes because of the contraction pains. I had visitors throughout the days of waiting, those who made the days go by faster. But, the biggest support system I had was my boyfriend, Erick. He was there for me the whole time I was in the hospital. Some dads go home for a bit to get a break off of the fold out chairs but he never left my side.
It was the third day I was in there, the day I would be delivering my baby. I was still three centimeters and had been since the day before. I had to get my epidural. I tried to hold out as long as I could, but my contractions were getting closer and closer together, and still not dilated any more than before. I went to bed that night in the room I would deliver in. It was becoming so much more real knowing this would be my last room before I got to meet the littlest love of my life. The Drs decided to break my water to speed things up once I had hit five centimeters, within an hour I went all the way to ten centimeters. The minute I hit ten, I knew it was time. The Dr checked me out and told me my body was right. My body was telling me to push, but my little girl hadn’t dropped enough down to start. It would have stressed her out too much if I had started pushing at that time. So, I did little pushes that helped my body not hurt as much, but didn’t put stress on baby. The monitor had lost her heartbeat, but they soon put a string attached to her head to keep track that way. The Drs said that when the string moves then she is moving more towards the outside world. It wiggled lots and I was being told that it was almost time to really give it my all… I gave every ounce of strength I had to help bring her into the world.. I had to hold my own legs and one point towards the end and I just remember thinking, “omg thats a lot of hair… is it a hamster!?” When they placed her on my chest I had forgotten all the pain I just went through for the last hour. I got compliments that made me feel like a superhuman. My family and the Drs made me feel amazing about all the effort I had just done alone to bring her out. The feeling that came over me is so unreal and unexplainable. Unless you are a parent yourself, its hard to picture what feelings come over you. This little human is growing inside of you for almost ten months, and all of a sudden: there they are. They know who you are off the bat. She cried when she came out, not right away, but when they gave her to me.. she immediately stopped. My heart was overflowing with love. I get butterflies when I look at her. This little piece of me is forever mine and finally here. Its like waiting for Christmas to happen when your little. Its like when you can’t sleep at night because you’re so excited for the next day. Its like the smell of fresh laundry. Its like when you think about memories that make your heart smile. Its the best feeling ever. Better than all the examples I just listed. She is my everything and I am so proud to be her momma. She is life.